First step

I am creating a dream blog right now. I am super happy and excited about it. My heart beats is pounding so hard when I first came with the idea and almost gave me a heart attacked when we have already have a go on the plan. I dont know where would this take me but I am grabbing the opportunity. I love to write and I love food so I guess I will give justice to the niche that I have chosen. ^_^

I am thankful for

Well there are many things that has been happening in my life and most of them are depressing but instead of thinking this way I would rather think of the things that makes me happy and the blessings I have received. I am so thankful for my family, my friends, my cousins for being there. for my job that is helping me to provide my own needs. Thank you!!!!...

Finding my niche

grabe I think now a days I am finding what I really want to do with my life. Masaya ako kasi naman this is my otherself. this is where I could tell the world about my dreams about what runs into my mind and find myself. Hahahaha nakakatawa nag iicp na ako ngaun mga kaparaan paraan na ways para naman makaahon sa pagiging isang day time employee... weird noh? pero I want something more out of my life and I will do something to have financial freedom. Dahan dahan onti onti I know I will get by and I will be financially free but first I must find my own niche first :)

True Hope

Hay... after suppressing my feelings for the longest time I am now back in blogging... weird coz the reason I have stopped its because of my feelings that I have not yet analyze and arrange but now I am back with a vengeance hahaha :) Just joking... I am back better than before.

Maybe who ever will read this blog will be confused as the sentences are not really coercing with each other.

Yosh! Ayun sha balik na sa tunay kong lengguwahe. Masaya ito!!! bumalik na naman ako sa blogging pero ayun oh sana mapagpatuloy ko na kaso sa hectic ng schedule ko ewan ko hahahaha ewan ko ba basta magiging ito na talaga ang hingahan ko pra naman meron din akong breathing ground hahahah weird masaya ako... cguro dahil I have found my true hope. hindi ito tao pero I felt that I am hopeful because this time around I have already found god. I am at peace because I am starting to get close to him. Ang saya na makilala sha na mapalapit sa kanya pero alam mo mahirap kc nga po... mas lalo kang lumalapit mas lalo kang may trials. Isipin mo nga nun time na decided na ako meron biglang naging problema sa family ko. Yung bunso kong kapatid nagkasakit simple lagnat na nauwi sa mas marami pang sakit. Pero alam mo nakakatakot kc ang daming findings pero alam mo ba ang daming nakitang sakit nya. Ang taas ng triglycerides nya tapos may fatty liver pa sha hay... ayun nga pero ang weird tinitignan ko sha as blessing. Because of that, mukhang naging close pa family ko, ngaun mas naaappreciate nila yung 3rd brother ko kc nga aun nakikita nila kung gaano kabait. tapos ako din I have to do my best in order to help... sana nga eh maging ok na talaga ang lahat natatakot pa din ako for the future pero still... I know dapat I try to do my best whatever happens kc un ang tama at ung makukuha ko sa pag gawa ng best ko ang alm kong makakatulong sa amin. I am aiming high now this is what I prayed for and i know god will help me attain it. :)

I just needed this.

Well, honestly, I just needed to blog. I just needed to smile a bit and let all my feelings out. I am totally not happy but I am not totally sad either, I guess, I am in between. ^_^ I don't know where I want to go as of this moment and I want to pick the pieces of myself that has been dried down. I want to improve myself and start a makeover. I am thinking, is there a really possibility for us? If you are not even willing to try?...

Eto un eh...

Hay naku nang pumasok ako kanina sa ofc masaya ako. Ayos ako. May pa meditate meditate pa nga ko sa bahay eh. Lhat ng parte ng katawan ko masaya. Tapos nabalitaan ko na nakita na nung friend ko ung ex ko. So far, masaya naman ako kc eyesore ang sabi nya so therefore technically masaya na akong malaman na nasa mabuting kalagayan un aking magaling na ex na nang iwan sa akin. Anyways, tingin ko makakapag move on na talaga ako ng husto. As in todo na talaga. Kaya ko na shang kalilmutan kc nagagalit na ako eh. Ang tanga tanga ko kung hihintayin ko pa sha. Ay naku! manigas sha noh! alam ko balang araw hahabulin nya din ako. hehe...
feeling ko nga ngaun palang iniicp nya na ako eh. Hinahanap na nya ung pag aalaga ko sa kanya. Kung tutuusin kaya naman nilang maging masaya araw araw. Wala akong hard feelings na-hurt lang talaga ako.

Anyways, ngaun pagkagcng ko naiinis naman ako. OO nasa trabaho ako at dapat ako magtrabaho kaso parang naiicp ko kapag ang dami daming pinapagawa sau nawawal ka sa focus tapos kapag ganun tatamarin ka na. Hay, ayoko sana ng gantong feeling pero parang gusto ko sumigaw sabay sabing AYOKO na! hehe I quit! Binebenta ko na ang project ko! Ibang project na gusto kong hawakan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hehehe... pero sa totoo lang tong project kong to mahal ko na. Kc dito ako maraming natutunan. Dito ako naging intindidong tao sa trabaho kaya indi ko ipagpapalit tong project ko sa ibang project. Kahit sumasakit na ulo ko. Kahit minsan gusto ko nang iuntog sa desk ko dahil indi ko maicp ang sagot bakit nag kakaron ng aberya. Gusto ko to kc dugo't pawis isama na ang taba sa pundasyon ko sa project na ito. Hay... nawawala lang talaga ako sa focus. hehehe... pero at least nablog ko na sha kaya mejo maiibsan na ung pakiramdam na katams. hehehe... sha tapusin ko lang ung trabaho ko...

Raw Impossibility.

Until now after one year I still am asking myself what went wrong. What happened between us and now, I can truly say that I miss you so much that I wish I could track you down and ask you to come back. Sick right? Though I know that there is nothing more to get back. It is over. It is final. You have finally moved on with your life and found another gal. I must confess that til now I am wishing for you to come back. I think this is the symptom of loving too much and being left out without exhausting all means to fix things up. Its so damn hard getting back to the way things are before but I must keep on moving keep on reminding myself that this is for the best even if it is really wrecking my heart and my mind.

I love you so much until now it hurts. I love you so much that all I am waiting is for you to arrived at my door step and ask me to come back. That's all that I am wishing for.


But then again, this is impossible.