Second Guessing

I hate when I am in this position where in I am trying to figure out what I still want to do with my life. I hate it when I want something material then I would second guess myself in buying the stuff that I want/I need. Then in the long run I would buy something that I thought is helping me save up but in the end I just makes me spend more. Well, this time I think I should change the way I think about things about stuff. I think I should stop second guessing myself and just enjoy the things that I want to enjoy and stop hoarding. There is a lot of clutter in my life already that I need to unload now. I guess, I should start giving it away.

Another year to dream big

Nasa punto ako ngaun ng buhaybko kung saan pakiramdam ko ay tapos na ang lahat. Walang plano, walang pangarap. Empty na naman. Ngunit naisip ko na bakit noon? Nung wala pa akong trabaho, wala pa akong kinikita, wala naman ako pera nun. Pangarap lang ang meron ako na natupad naman. Ngayon natupad na ang mga pangarap ko at kumikita na ako bakit parang mas humirap pa ang pakiramdam ko? Dahil ba to nakaranas na ako ng maraing failure kung saan ayoko na pagdaanan at tuluyan na akong napagod? Mas dahil ba to sa takot na mapagdaanan ulit lahat ng napag daanan ko? Siguro un nga iyon pero ngaun susubok ulit ako mangarap at this time isa isa ko nng tutupadin iyon