I don't know what day number it is now that I am typing this. But one thing is for sure, LOSING WEIGHT IS A BATTLE FIELD. Right now, all I know is that I have lost 9 lbs for the last 1 month and 2 weeks. This is the first time for the last ten years that I have lost a couple of lbs and the weighing scale has really tipped off from my consistently high weight.
It was a surreal moment when you have lost your first 3 lbs and you cannot believe that you indeed lost some weight. I know that 3 lbs is just a small number for some people but the minute I lost these damn lbs is the moment I felt that I have lost 30 lbs instead. I was so happy and elated though it does not totally sink in. I still felt heavy.
But when a flared pants that you have bought 2 years ago would be smoothly wearable now. A tight skinny jeans that you have not worn for a year would be falling off from your waist as it was now loose. An everyday t-shirt you always wear would become loose in the tummy area and would smoothly go down in your body without the skimpy feeling. Those are the moments where you will just say that "YEAH I INDEED LOST SOME WEIGHT" with a big smile plastered on your face. When you see your face in the mirror and notice that your skin has been clearer. When your demeanor becomes positive because you are doing something for yourself. When your laboratory exams are all normal and your cholesterol level has gone down below normal. Those are the priceless things that DIET... losing weight do for you.
However, losing weight is not all happiness. Its not all glamour Its not that easy! Losing weight is a struggle. A struggle to keep up. It is a battle field where you need to fight every step that you take, every food that you ate. You have to fight the temptation. You have to fight that free pizza on your finger tips. You have to hold yourself while eating some veggie that you cannot stand the taste when it is boiled. When you felt that the food you are eating is too bland for your taste but you are trying your best to follow your meal plan. When all I can do is cry and think and say and cry again because I want to quit but then I am thinking about my exercise routine for the day. Losing weight is not that easy. Its a battle field where your heart must be stronger than your brain. Where your reasons are stronger than the temptation. When discipline is the only thing you can hold on to. Losing weight is a battle field where you need to win in order to lose (some weight). That is losing weight. So if you are not wholeheartedly doing it and you do not have enough strong reason to continue on then I guess this feat is not for you. Because when you lose weight dedication is a must. Decisions are a must. You decide that you badly want it and you decide whatever it takes. You decide that you will do this for the long haul and not just for a certain period of time because losing weight is a lifestyle change. A lifestyle paradigm.
