The Longest June of my life

Well I never have bothered myself with months actually. I have never been so keen about it and I am never felt the days of months before. I never paid close attention to it if truth be told but then again, this particular month is actually very annoying as I am feeling every day of it. I felt that this month is slowly changing its days. Its been so dragging. I don't know why I felt this way with this month. Maybe because I have done so many things in just a span of one month.

I would say that it is amazing and thrilling to accomplish such many things but it is also tiring and never-wracking on my part as well. First thing was that I have went to a trip to an HK-MO tour. I have tick  off from my bucket list two things. First was to go out of the country with my bestfriend and second is to go to the happiest place on earth which is Disneyland HongKong. I knew back then when I first heard the news that Disneyland was opening in hongkong that I will be able to go there. That I will do all I can to just go there and visit it. It is my childhood dream to go to Disneyland to go to an amusement park where your trouble will be forgotten just for one day. I am happy to seen it all with a best buddy at my side.

After that glorious vacation, i am now back to reality with tantamount deadlines to beat and things to settle down. Upon arrival to my office I automatically faced the reality of it all. So aside from the glorious vacation of this month, i am now faced with every day stressed and one way of coping up with everything is to either watch korean novelas, watch anime or read manga. So far this helps but then again I am praying already that this month passed by faster. I know that its just a few days for this month to be over but what can I do?! deadlines are until the 30th and i cant wait to finish all the deadlines. i am aiming for a peaceful days again, less stressed one nonetheless. I want to freely breathe. But then I would want to thank friends for making me breathe for a little while. For making me savor stress free moments and life outside work Well my lungs are already giving up on the stressed as yesterday I had an asthma attack. Though it has been cured with the medicine and I can do some errands at noon.Well I guessed I just have to face these deadlines head on so that when the month have reached its end I could finally claim that I have conquered it with grace.

My Third Brother

I am fond of my third younger brother, well I have two so that explains that I should be clear about it. He is my male version as family would say. He has the same short temper as I am. Same facial features. Same voice in the telephone. Same take on how to handle things outside our own world. But we also have differences, he is more reckless than I. More decisive. More grip with his wants and needs.

I would say that I am close to him. He knows how I tick (but my other siblings also reads me well too) but he is a kind of brother to which you will get drawn into because he is a very happy person. He may have situations that is difficult to handle but he have surpassed it all. I love this guy. I love the coolness he exudes. We have our bonding moments together when we are younger but time has passed and we have spend lesser time together due to growing up of course but then again a surprise was done today by papa god! My brother visited us because he will do some part time job to our neighbor. I was surprised as I am thinking about him already that day.

I was happy that he did visited us at least after his part time job we did do some bonding of our own. We went to the nearby supermarket to buy some techie stuff to help me save my money. We also ate some sushi at a japanese fastfood. Its been ages since we bond like bro and sis. I did get to miss my third brother but I guess when you have already establish a certain connection with your siblings no matter how old you get and how distant you become the closeness of that connection will never fade because the love and respect has already been sown and planted. Now, my wish is to get to bond with them in an out of town setup with my whole family.

Treasure

Friends. They let me live just a little. They let me go out of my shell and share myself. I know deep down in myself that I am a lazy person. Lazy for everything uncomfortable and even comfortable ones but when it comes to relationships with people I knew deep down that I do make an effort that I do make time. Because relationships are my treasures. Treasure to which I would never ever buy in a mall. Treasure which is cultivated through time. Yes, you may instantly click with one another but then again test of time will prove that what you have is not just a coal but a diamond in rough.

I love the set of friends that I have now. I love how they understand me even at times that I may not show still when there are free time that I could go they would happily welcome me and invite me. I have considered myself recently that I have been an introvert as I would go home and locked myself to my room either reading and watching the anime that I have recently downloaded. I am happy with that kind of life but it gets boring too when you are all alone for a long while so I am so thankful to my friends that they are there when I need a refresher , when I need my energy back and for accepting me for what I am. My personality might be opposite poles, I may have bipolar attitude tendencies but then again I am thankful for those who have accepted me for what I am.

Pigments should be left pigments

Sometimes we come to face facts that things should be left as what it is. Its like saying don't fix it if it is not broken. Its like the more you visualize and fantasize the things that you want to have the more you will be drawn to it, the more you will feel connected to it. However, sometimes wishes should be left just for the imagination and not for actual consumption. Reality and Fantasy should not mix at least in some instances. Things should be left fantasy and reality must be liven up as sometimes when wishes do come true one does not know how to pay the consequences of that wish and eventually by living it in reality they somehow die of a slow death.

Prayer

Have you ever prayed one thing and then it was automatically granted to you? No we are not talking about days here, we are talking about minutes! Well for over a year now I have a dilemma and no, I will not talk about the specifics for this. I am quite done with it, so no point of telling what it is anyway but rather I consider it as a blessing on my part that is why I am blogging about it to share that prayers do come true. I know I have been blabbing about mambo jumbo here but I really don't want to be understood with this entry. I just want to tell it confusingly to whomever will read this that I did get my wish and prayer right this time. God really does answers prayer if it really would do you great and within minutes it will be done. Its just fascinating how God do things and for that I got my prayer of peace. Now, I could say that I do have my peace of mind and calm demeanor. I am happy but still empty. I bet next time, I will pray I will ask for completeness and fullness. I would really want to have that kind of full happiness. *wink*