Prayer

For the past days, I have been praying for two things. The first one is to keep me inside his heart so that the next one that who will seek me must first seek him in order to find me. You see I'm so tired of the loop that I am in. I am so tired of meeting Mr. Wrong. I am so tired of having my heart broken into many pieces. I already have my fair share of heartache and as time pass by it did became lighter to bear but still the same impact with my well being. It still hurt as hell but this time I could lighten the blow. I could carry it with a smile. This time around I'll hide inside your heart so that the next one will have difficulty in finding me that when he sees me he will cherish me which I deserve.

The second one was I am praying for you. Yes! You! For years, I have been praying that I wish one day you will see me as me but beyond my imperfections. You know I have been waiting and I hope you have been waiting for me too. I know that you want to see me in my best features and I know you want me thin. I will give it to you to see how it works. I hope you search your heart and see how I am important to you. You are kept inside my heart longer than I expect. Even when I don't see you as someone who is possible to love but maybe even then I have been captivated. I've seen you bloom. I hope you will see me too. I am waiting for you, please wait for me too? I'll do my best as long as you promise me your there at my best.

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Harvest

I remember back then about the quote by my supervisor: "Sow and Reap". This is her favorite words and quote from the bible. She always told me to plant where I stand. To plant goodness every chance I have and I will automatically reply: "when will I reap what I sow?" then she will automatically reply: "basta! Sow lang ng Sow" (its just... just do your sowing!). Now, these words of wisdom are the words that are ringing in my head :). You see I am a bread winner and I help in the studies of my sister and brother. I know that this is my responsibility as an elder. Its how we are brought up and I don't mind it anyways because even if it is hard I still enjoy being helpful to my siblings. I am proud that I could give help.

Years, pass by so fast my sister graduated then the last one to finance is my brother. He is the youngest of us four. Me and my sister help each other to ease the burden of financing his studies. This is how we are taught about the sense of responsibility. I am happy that this was ingrained to my head even when I am a kid, today, I would proudly say that I am very stable in my choice of field.

When we are kids we lack of every material things. We are to some extent deprive as we don't have extra money to buy luxuries. Though, our primary needs are met. From there, we dream that someday we would conquer the world and bring our parents to different destinations that we long for. From there dreams are made.

Today, right this very minute our dreams are finally coming true. My sister have graduated and is working in a stable company. My youngest brother is graduating. Not only that, his team won as the National Best Thesis of their school.

Now, I really could feel that this is the harvest. This is the moment where I would get a hold of my life and start from scratch. I have no qualms in doing this but actually I am so happy that this was actually the start of my future. Now, all I could mutter is "THANK YOU LORD!!!"

April Fools' Day

Back to the real world, I am so excited to go to work today because I now have earlier working schedule. I was hoping that there would no traffic to and from work.  Indeed, I was right! The traffic was so light! I also easily get a ride home which is so hard on my previous and later work schedule. I think I would really love this new schedule that I have. I got to go to work early and go home early too! How cool is that right?! I am also so productive with this schedule that I am not bored and I have so many things to do! It's such a great schedule for me.

 

Also, since I am now in an earlier schedule I can now have some bonding time with my friends! Speaking of bonding with friends, yesterday my friend informed me that she will go to the mall to buy some stuff for herself. Since she knows that I always passed that mall she invited me to come along and since I have now an earlier shift she no longer needs to wait for long. This means we have more time for bonding! Our bonding was all about buying some make-up and preggy clothes for my mother to be friend. I was so happy that she would be a mom now. I remember those times that we met that all we talked about was latest fashion, hobbies and some mundane things but now the world has evolved. We have matured and talking about preggy dresses and clothes, babies and nieces. It was fun to have friends that could actually evolve with you. Friends that you know you have their friendship even if you have misgivings. I love these friends that they are brutally honest with me. They would actually tell me the truth even if they know that it will hurt me but they are just doing it for me to become better. They are the type of friends that care so much for you that's why they want you to be better.

 

The fun part of being with these friends are the endless chitchat and bonding over cups of cold blended mocha. I have actually forgotten about the Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf 50% off discount yesterday and luckily, my two friends have known about it and stayed there to wait for me. Since, that was the case I have availed their 50% off.

 

The only unlucky part of it was the caffeine in mocha kept me awake, hence, this blog posting late at night as I could not sleep yet... ARGH! DAMN DELICIOUS YUMMY MOCHA!!!!!! but I will always do the same mistake again! Don't you doubt that my friend ^_~.