Alathea signing on.
Tick… Tock… hmmm what should I say?...
I’ve done so many blogs in the past
til now I haven’t maintained anything yet…
But here it goes…
Everything was fine with my life until the day we broke up…
I was so devastated that I even go to our kitchen, get the knife and thought of cutting myself but guess what? I am stronger. I didn’t cut myself. I am stronger than my problem… that facing and solving a problem is just a part of life. I shouldn’t give up just because I have been broken. It was months ago since that incident happen and I could say I am fine now. Thanks to my family and friends. They did help me a lot in overcoming this phase in my life.
Now, I realize that loving someone whole heartedly is not a crime but loving too much is bad. Giving your attention, your time, investing efforts in one person who one day will throw it all back to you sucks but I guess its part of growing up thing because you will never mature unless you get hurt. You will never understand unless you love. You will never be strong unless you learn to move on.
Before I was afraid of being alone, I was very afraid that’s why I tried to be the best so that he will not leave but the more I tried to be the perfect someone… the more I was being neglected. Feeling like a trash in his life is not good on one’s ego… I even beg him to stay… he did but still leave me in the end. That time I thought life was so unfair but now, it’s just an experience for me and nothing more, nothing less.
I must confess I am now having a crush on someone who did not know I even existed. I want to get to know him first and be friends with him. I am considering in getting him for myself as a potential lover in the future but first I need to know him. I need to get close to him or else I wouldn’t entertain the thought. This time around I want to do it right. I want to do it slow. ^_^
Tick… Tock… hmmm what should I say?...
I’ve done so many blogs in the past
til now I haven’t maintained anything yet…
But here it goes…
Everything was fine with my life until the day we broke up…
I was so devastated that I even go to our kitchen, get the knife and thought of cutting myself but guess what? I am stronger. I didn’t cut myself. I am stronger than my problem… that facing and solving a problem is just a part of life. I shouldn’t give up just because I have been broken. It was months ago since that incident happen and I could say I am fine now. Thanks to my family and friends. They did help me a lot in overcoming this phase in my life.
Now, I realize that loving someone whole heartedly is not a crime but loving too much is bad. Giving your attention, your time, investing efforts in one person who one day will throw it all back to you sucks but I guess its part of growing up thing because you will never mature unless you get hurt. You will never understand unless you love. You will never be strong unless you learn to move on.
Before I was afraid of being alone, I was very afraid that’s why I tried to be the best so that he will not leave but the more I tried to be the perfect someone… the more I was being neglected. Feeling like a trash in his life is not good on one’s ego… I even beg him to stay… he did but still leave me in the end. That time I thought life was so unfair but now, it’s just an experience for me and nothing more, nothing less.
I must confess I am now having a crush on someone who did not know I even existed. I want to get to know him first and be friends with him. I am considering in getting him for myself as a potential lover in the future but first I need to know him. I need to get close to him or else I wouldn’t entertain the thought. This time around I want to do it right. I want to do it slow. ^_^
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