Shocked

How can someone feel so unloved, disrespected and uncared for all in one time? Honestly, I am crying inside today as I feel those things all at the same time. I feel that the person I love don't even respect me, did not even warn me that someone I do not yet wish to see is actually in the same event as me. I feel violated and trapped. I am not prepared on how to react. Now, I felt that I want to break the relationship. I am already insecure about his love and then I will see him and that someone when I am not emotionally unprepared. I don't like what they did to me I just wish that someone who is wise enough have told him to warn me. I feel not ok. I am not fine. I am tired of waiting that this someone that I love would love me back. Today, I stopped reaching out. I stopped running after him. Today, I am letting him free and giving him a choice to run after me.