I am opening DOORS

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I always loved writing. When I was in elementary I love to create short stories about adventure. I have created a number of poems about life and love. When I was in high school, I started to write love romances novel in my old notebooks everyday and it always gave me that satisfying sigh that I felt I have done something very worthwhile. Some notebooks I kept, some I have lost. But still the writer in me lives. I even got to the point that I dreamed of submitting my love romances novel and manuscripts to a publishing company but these does not materialize as I got to college and tried to forget all about it. I suppress the writer in me. I stop the dream. I stop believing that I can write. I close my doors... to opportunity. I turned away from my passion and I close my door to my paradise.

For the past years that I have neglected this passion, I have realize that the writer in me is shouting and begging to come out. The writer part of me have been all along crying out loud for it to be unleashed. I have denied myself of doing something I love because I thought that this is not where I would excel, this is not something that would complete me. But I was wrong. I am a writer and I should start believing again that what I do is great because this makes me complete. Writing makes me happy. I am always thinking why am I feeling so low, why am I feeling so incomplete. I thought because I was unloved and yes! its true because I didn't love myself enough to let the writer in me be released. I was insecure enough that my writing skills is not enough. So I let the writer in me to die in a slow death over the years but I guess, this time around I cannot deny the writer to be unleashed. This time I will love myself more by letting it roar and do what my heart always longs for... And that is to write. I am finally signing in to the blogging world not because I want to be famous or be known but because this is where my heart is. This is where I wanted to be. All along I thought I could tame the writer in me and shut the door forever but now I am allowing myself to be free.

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I am now allowing myself to enter the unknown possibilities. Maybe someday I would also start to publish my own love romance story novel. Maybe someone would read my poems and sponsor to publish it. I am opening this blog to every soul who has passion that they have forgotten because they grew up, because they realized that they are not the best in the field.

I am telling you this now, in this world there would be better than you or smarter than you. But what matters most is what you want to do. What your heart is longing for. What your soul is searching for. Best of all do what makes you complete. Frustration comes from feelings of inadequacy and not doing something about it. So if you want something bad enough but restraining yourself because you are afraid then have the courage to do it anyway. Insecurity would not make you a better person but a lesser one. So grab that mic that you are staring at and start to sing even if you are out of tune. Sing your heart out if that would make you happy... if that will bring a smile into your face. Maybe after trying hard enough you will end up with a trained singing voice.

Just like what mother beki Divine M Lee said in her blog, she dreamed about it and tried hard enough to achieve it! Dreams do come true and all you have to do is try... hard enough. I like how she said it in plain simple words "Gurl pinaghirapan ko" (Girl, I tried my best). Really, maybe the difference between losers and winners are that losers quit without even trying but winners never quit. They tried their hardest to win, they tried hard enough to achieve it even if it seems impossible. My dream is to publish a pocket book. Even once in my life I want to see my name as the author of a pocket book, may it contain poems, posts or love romance story. I also want other people to read what write and inspire them to also do their best.

To all the dreamers out there who have shut down their dreams because they think they are not good enough and has been feeling low, frustrated and sad because everything you do seems senseless then go back to your dream that you have neglected and work on it. Even if you are in your 60s or 80s, if you have been bothered all through out your life and nothing have made you happy even if you are successful and have done your part then maybe your passion is calling out to be unleashed. Then I guess, its time to open your doors to your own paradise.

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