Now i understand...

I remember the time when i got hired from another institution. I was perfectly happy with my job that time but god has other plans for my life. When i got the good news that i was chosen its also the time i got promoted. I was totally happy and ecstatic but also tormented and confused. I was given a chance of a lifetime to work in an institution that i know i would work someday even when i was just a call center agent. I enjoyed my bigger salary back then because i know when i reach my true destination my salary would degrade. That time, i really didnt know how will that happen but then again, i was transferred to my current job that time. It was prestigious in a way that you get to be on that company with prestigious work description. Then the offer for my final and true destination came the moment they announced that i have been promoted. Funny that even if my promotion salary was bigger i let myself have a 40% salary off by accepting the offer of now my current work. I did felt the weight of the demotion. I did become depressed for over one year because of it. I really felt demoted and deprived. Fast forward to my third year and i was so happy. I am so enjoying the company of my new work family. I like my supervisor so much as he was so nice to talk to and understands family matters. I tried applying for promotion but no luck. Then came this day to make me realize that i am not yet meant to be promoted because someone more important than money... needs me. Someone i owe my life needs me and i could not exchange anything for her. Sometime ago i ask myself if money is really everything. If buying luxurious stuff is really the thing now to prove something for yourself as that is what i see in tv, media and celebrities... of course i get jealous too (Well i will do this soon though but then again its not my priority) thougb the answer that i am looking for was automatically given and its not. Money is not everything. But what is really important? With the incident today i can fully say that time, care and love is the most important aspect of all. Yes, money can buy you all the luxuries your heart will want. It will bring you to places that you will desire but it will never buy you time well spent with your loved ones. It will never bring you back to the time that all they want was for you to come to their aid. It can also never buy you love. Love that only you could give to them. Love that thru your service could transcend the message to them. I dont want to regret everything when it cones to my loved ones i want to give them my all. I will never be a perfect daughter nor granddaughtevr nor person but i do try to be a good one. So im trying my best to give it to them... this time is all i have this time is all i can maximize for me to be there because ill never know when i can no longer give back. And all i can do is cry at night regretting everything because i never have time because im too busy to care. I know having big salary is also a big responsibility, right now, i know deep in my heart that it is not yet time... i still need to learn much about my current situation. XBut right now, right this minute... im thankful that i have TIME.