Starting Over Again. Feels.

I just watch yesterday the movie Starting Over Again by Director Olivia Lamasan. The lead stars are Toni Gonzaga, Piolo Pascual and Iza Calzado. Yup, the three of them. I am not really a fan of Philippine Movies as they are known to be very predictable but then again I have heard great reviews about the movie. I was intrigue that even my guy friends rave about the movie which is rare here in our country. For the love of GOD it is a ROMANTIC COMEDY LOVE STORY! Guys don't gush about such stories but they do! Weird but they do! 

But I am already intrigue with their trailer.

Then the lines Piolo Pascual struck me. "I deserved an explanation. I deserved an acceptable reason.”  - Marco. That's it! I am going to watch this movie! I am going to feel exactly what these characters are feeling! I want feels! I want to cry! I want to sympathize with them. I want to know how would they deliver the lines. The quotable quotes that I read. I want to feel the emotions of the characters with every word spoken. Because their lines were real. There lines are actually reality to which some point in your life you have uttered to the people you love to the person around you.  

When I watch it I already know the conclusion, the outcome told by my bestfriend over twitter when he read I want to watch. At first I felt that is it worth it? Is it worth my time? But I have decided that I want to feel the lines. I want them to shake my very core. I want them to dragged me into their catalyst of a movie. I wanted to be drawn.

The introduction of the characters of young Ginny and Marco was really hilarious. Its a common story where a student had an extreme crush to her professor with many childish and immature pain. But it also give you glimpse of the girl who is very persistent, passionate, goal oriented and strong willed. Then there was this professor who had just followed his family's legacy but had a knack for cooking food. The Professor who is laid back, contented, chill and easy going.

I think the first part was more of an infatuation of a kid to a handsome professor. But this had developed to a fully bloomed romance over the years that they grew up and were together. At first I didn't also understand why Ginny have to leave. Why she have to let go without even saying goodbye. I was so devastated on what she did with Marco. The kind and sweet guy who love her more than himself. To which he was willing to let himself go and be molded by the girl he loved. He did lost himself and her too. 

After years of separation, they are back again together. Ginny started questioning everything and Marco has his doubts. I love the confrontation scene between Patty the present girlfriend of Marco and Ginny the Ex-girlfriend of Marco. I love how Iza Calzado deliver the line “I love him Ginny… and in love, there is no fear.”  - Patty. This line struck me to the core because I know that during my younger years I loved with fear. Because I know that somewhere down my chaotic past I felt this words. I know that once I have been Ginny I have been the giddy girl in love but doesn't really know what is love.

Funny, that the line that made me watch this movie doesn't strike me that much. It was delivered greatly and passionately but it did not reverberate in my soul. Then came the words, "how do i unlove you?" - Ginny. These words played in my head over and over again. Until when I was in my ride going home, it still playing along my head. I will be honest that I know why is it that this words make me feel. Because if truth be told, I am like Ginny wishing for a second chance. Wishing for a chance to loved again the same person I love fervently for the last 4 years. Secretly wishing that one day that person would reclaim me. That person will tell me that he just gave me time to conquer myself. But at the end of the day, you must say the words to give way to the future waiting for you. To breathe freely and be whole.

I love the almost last part where Ginny and her father is talking about the clock. I love that the clock symbolizes the gift of time that God has given us to make things right. The time that helps us to heal and move on. To make right our past mistakes. To make a better future and better relationships. Time that teaches us what we choose was actually the right path that we are destined to be in. 

I love the line "oras para buoin muli ang sarili" - Ginny's Father (Time to make your self whole). But with the last line that the father said, I knew I have been woken up from my sleep. This made me think and rethink of what have I done with myself after the hiatus in my life. I know for a fact that I have made me this because of it. I have made me this because I am having my revenge with my self. Because I know deep down in me, I am blaming myself because of the hidden fear that I've got. I know that somehow I became Ginny. I became the dreamer that I am and I don't want any baggage to held me down. That's why I prayed that he let me go. I didn't do the leaving thing that Ginny did but he did it for me. I became Marco once, and I run to him. Asking him. Begging him to come back to my life. But like what Ginny did he still walked out on me. 

I believe Marco when he said "I was willing to wait... Kaya lang napagod ako. Napagod ang puso ko na maghintay, magtanong, magalit." - Marco. Somehow, I have experienced this. I have been Marco too because there came a time where I am numb that I have gotten tired of waiting, of being left out in the dark. I too have been able to have another love but that isn't Patty. I know deep down that it was just an interim. 

I love how Patty told Ginny how they met. "Ours began in a most unexciting way, as friends. Now, our love may be quiet and boring but it is sure. With the right amount of trust and love, and even an allowance for mistake.”  - Patty But I am silently praying for this kind of love to touch me. Something stable. Something you can hold onto. I wish that a Patty would come into my life. Someone dependable. Someone who will understand me and let me make mistakes.

I would say that right now I am Marco. Complacent, laid back and contented. But I am struggling to bring Ginny back. The Dreamer, fierce, goal-oriented and achiever. But somehow along the way upon my Marco developing stage to the Ginny person that I should be. I would silently pray that I would also end up with a Patty who will loved me unconditionally.

I would say that this film really had its realness in it that will really struck you to the core. There are so may quotable quotes that anyone would relate to. I love the ending of this film because it is reality. Because we knew somehow that being whole meant forgiving ourselves of the mistakes that we brought upon us and forgiveness to those who have hurt us.

This movie is for the love struck folks, for the waiting people, for the broken-hearted, for the bitter ones and for the people who have not lose faith in love.

Well for all its worth, Here are my parting quotable quotes from the movie to which I would love to say to you! Yes! YOU!

"How can you not forgive someone who made you a better person?” 

“I can never unlove you. I’ll just love you in a different way now.”

For my one true love, this is for you:

"Your timing is just perfect."