Lost

I was never confused with my emotions before. I was never lost with it. I am very adept with what I feel on who to feel it with but then after one day of spending it with someone who I shouldn't feel anything with, it all crashed down on me. I swear that I do want to let go of this, I dont want to harbor it. I think I am playing with my head more than my heart but does emotions really connected with both?
Actually, I am quite at peace with my life before you came crashing down on it. I guess I was so comfortable with my life before you came and now I am at a lost. I am at a lost of what to believe anymore. I have already tried forgetting you but you always made it a point of coming back, crawling back in the recess of my soul. I should have stopped feeling this but still I do miss you. I do feel you. I guess I must stopped this. I want my security blanket. I want to be the cool girl, the peaceful one. I just wanted to be there but no emotions. No nothing. But one thing is for sure, I would want to go back to where it was before.