Yesterday, I was out the whole day and have not even bothered to open a computer hence the no update. I went to my cardiologist yesterday and brought him my results. The good part with this is that I am in medication even if it is still in the early stages so in short I could maintain my vitals thru medication. He also advise me that after a month I took another lab tests in order for me to check if I am prone to the sugar disease. I am honestly afraid with my conditions. With my family history I know that I am prone and I let this happen to myself. However, with this trials I realize that maybe God wants me to live one day at a time. You see I have been struggling with my existence in this world for over quite sometime. I have been questioning things and become monotonous with everyday life. There is no thrill. There is no eureka moment. I just live each day. But now I have a target, I have a zest in my life that I aim to live. I aim to beat my sugar. I aim to be healthy. I am to make my vitals be at their normal state. I want everything to be ok. I have contacted my nutritionist friend. I have my meal plan all set. I am following the 3hrs distance per meal. I have been on 30 minutes per day exercise regime. I am actually praying for a miracle now. I am asking God to help me beat this sugar disease. I am very afraid to have this disease because it makes me feel weak. But now I know I am struggling to live. I am in a pre stage. So if I lose my sight on wellness I will be totally in the disease zone but even it I am still taking my precautions now even under medication.
Today is my third day and lunch was a struggle, I even almost vomited my food but I persevere and continue eating luckily I have finished eating the veggies and tonight the same food will be eaten so I am praying that I could persevere and eat it again because right now I am eating to live. I am no longer eating for the sake of yummyness of food but for me to live longer. Now, I understand what they say that you eat to live not you live to eat.
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