Chasing the feelings

Finally, I have come to terms with myself that I truly just want the feeling of being in love. The feeling where you will catch your breathe at the sight of him. The feeling of giddiness inside, you felt when you see his face and for a split second you are indeed contented with it. Though I think it isn't love that I am running after. It is just mere infatuation. It is just mere admiration for a person. I think that is what I only need, an inspiration to push me to reach my goal. I definitely do not need a boyfriend right now, I just need someone to invigorate me to do something to push me enough so that I may fulfill my dreams. I do not think that I can handle a relationship right now and I think I will just content myself with a crush. Well, thinking about him makes me giddy right now and smile non stop.