Validation

Have you ever been in a situation where people like you and love you but you cannot appreciate one word they say but would politely say thanks anyways? Well I have been in that kind of situation days ago and I do not like how I felt. It seemed like I am drained from it and makes me empty inside. Makes a hole deep within me. I cried that night actually because deep inside I know that I don't need their praises. I don't need validation from other people because I truly know myself but I am a hindrance to my own growth. I have so many fears and insecurities that is creeping on me that I could not move. I am the one making myself get stuck to where I am now. I should have been a great storyteller if I have just have enough courage to pursue it. If only I did not let my fear get in the way. I should have taken care of my skin when I have been younger but I was afraid that I am a hopeless case and let it be. Fast forward to my present, I am still the insecure girl. I have let myself depreciate to which I should have appreciate. Now, I am taking the rope of my life. Taking the chances that I have passed on by. letting myself be freed from my own chains. I am slowly but surely taking my life back. Making progress and achieving my goals one step at a time. I am back telling story and this time around wishing that in the process I will have my elusive happiness together with my self validation.